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Bon Iver - "Calgary" by blatanti

Turn your volume to a nice low volume, press play, then read on


Take a moment and think about the relationships in your life. Visualize the one person you love the very most. Now think about all the things you've been through to get that relationship to where it is today. Think of all the time you invested, things you have sacrificed, all the ups and downs along the way.

Think about how much you love you that person. How much you love to see them happy. The little things you go out of your way to do to make that person smile, to let them know you're thinking of them.

Now imagine that this person doesn't really do the same. They say they love you, they say they'd do anything for you & that you're the most important person in the world to them, but that's only words.

When it comes to their actions they go through life not treating you like the love of their life, but rather treating you as more of an annoyance or a duty. Sometimes even just a habit.

Maybe they'll call you before bed. Or send you a couple texts throughout the day. Sometimes they send you flowers in the mail & other days it seems as if they've completely forgotten about you.

Do you know what this feels like? To know you'd do anything and everything for one person & to only be a passing thought of theirs. To have their lips claim one thing, but their heart and actions to be saying something completely different.

Think about that for awhile.



I have had relationships like this. And while it breaks my heart, it doesn't compare to the moment I realized that this is what my relationship with God often looks like.

God has sacrificed everything for me. Giving me, not only, the best gift of forgiveness and eternal life. But also blessing after blessing in this life.

And what do I do? I say with my mouth how much I love God & how He is the most important thing to me. I tell others how I am a follower of Him.

Yet, when it comes down to it. I say a prayer before bed. I say a couple quick prayers throughout the day. Some days I'm full on fire and in love with Him & other times I go a whole day without thinking about Him.

While maybe I don't mean it to, in God's eyes, I'm sure my relationship with him often looks like an annoyance, duty, or habit. I'm sure he feels what I feel when the people I love seem to go about their day with no thought of me & only think of me right before they go to sleep.


It's because when we love someone this much, it's not enough to just get a "goodnight, I love you" phone call.We want to know everything about them, their day, what's on their mind, etc. We don't want to become something separate from them and their life. We want to be a part of their life.



Just something to think about as you think about your relationship with others, & especially God.